Do you have your Journal with you, are you alone? These are big questions make sure you have space so that you can be HONEST with yourself.
Why are you doing this?
I want to know your motivation behind this journey before you are even awakened?
Why do you want this?
Why do you want to be gifted, do you understand this is not an easy road?
Why do you like this?
Is this lifestyle what you really want? Did you see some else healing or guiding someone? Is it more than being like someone else?
Why do you want more out of life than you already have?
And do you deserve it? Are you willing to embark on this journey not knowing the answer to that question? Are you willing to take this journey not knowing the destination?